Money has been tight for a while now. I’ve been focusing all my time and energy on my craft. Julie is a nurse so she works at the hospital during the day. With me not working it has been putting a strain on our financial situation and our relationship.
When I travel to my shows, I do so using our money. The money I get from the shows doesn’t really cover the travel expenses, but I need to get exposure.
The time we have put in has paid off, I signed a deal with a recording studio today!
This news means so much to us. Things are finally starting to look up. We are going to make it. You should have seen Julie’s face when I told her, she was jumping up and down, she’s adorable.
I’m going to dedicate my first album to Ann and Sarah. I draw so much material from my horrible past. I write all songs in remembrance of them. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of them.
Julie is completely understanding about my dedication. She knows that they will always be a part of me and my life. She talks about them fondly with me, and doesn’t get frustrated or jealous.
We’re going out this weekend for a great dinner to celebrate, and I’m even buying Mr. Scruffles special dog treats so he can celebrate with us.
This is going to be absolutely brilliant. I cannot contain my excitement, as you can probably tell. We start recording in two weeks. Even though I’m really excited, I’m also very nervous. I have a fair amount of self-doubt.
Will I be any good?
Will my album sell?
Will people like it?
There are just so many questions. For now, I’m going to ride the wave of the present. I’m going to go into that studio and sing beautiful songs about my life and share the tragedy and joy that I have gone through.
I’ll get to share my message, and hopefully touch people’s lives. I want others to know that their not alone and that there is life after loss and addiction. “The Goanna” is going to be a household name. My dreams are finally going to come true.