Money Troubles

Money Troubles

1Money has been tight for a while now.  I’ve been focusing all my time and energy on my craft.  Julie is a nurse so she works at the hospital during the day.  With me not working it has been putting a strain on our financial situation and our relationship.

When I travel to my shows, I do so using our money. The money I get from the shows doesn’t really cover the travel expenses, but I need to get exposure.

The time we have put in has paid off, I signed a deal with a recording studio today!

This news means so much to us.  Things are finally starting to look up.  We are going to make it.  You should have seen Julie’s face when I told her, she was jumping up and down, she’s adorable.

I’m going to dedicate my first album to Ann and Sarah.  I draw so much material from my horrible past.  I write all songs in remembrance of them. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of them.

Julie is completely understanding about my dedication.  She knows that they will always be a part of me and my life.  She talks about them fondly with me, and doesn’t get frustrated or jealous.

We’re going out this weekend for a great dinner to celebrate, and I’m even buying Mr. Scruffles special dog treats so he can celebrate with us.

This is going to be absolutely brilliant.  I cannot contain my excitement, as you can probably tell.  We start recording in two weeks.  Even though I’m really excited, I’m also very nervous.  I have a fair amount of self-doubt.

Will I be any good?

Will my album sell?

Will people like it?

There are just so many questions. For now, I’m going to ride the wave of the present.  I’m going to go into that studio and sing beautiful songs about my life and share the tragedy and joy that I have gone through.

I’ll get to share my message, and hopefully touch people’s lives.  I want others to know that their not alone and that there is life after loss and addiction. “The Goanna” is going to be a household name.  My dreams are finally going to come true.

My Life

My Life

guitarsWhen I was 19 I got married to a beautiful girl named Ann.  Were we too young? Yes, probably, but that didn’t stop us from loving each other.  I took a job as a ranch hand and she became pregnant.  We worked out a deal with my boss and we lived on the ranch in a little shack.

She gave birth to our daughter, Sarah. We had such a beautiful and simple life.  Ann would take care of Sarah during the day while I was working. At night we would all gather around a fire with the rest of the ranch hands and their families, and I would play my guitar and we’d all sing along until we were all too exhausted to stay awake any longer.

It was a great community.  We couldn’t have asked for anything more.  When Sarah was about 4 she and Ann took a car to the nearest town to pick up some food.  On the way there they were ran off the road and they both died.  It was the hardest time in my life.  My beautiful wife and daughter were just gone.

I became a shell of a man.  I had lost everything in an instant.  I didn’t even get a chance to tell them that I loved them.

I quit my job and went to the big city.  I had no plans; I didn’t want to be alive.  I was homeless and turned to alcohol and drugs for comfort.  I played my guitar on the streets; hoping that someone would give me some money so I could buy more drugs.

I started stealing women’s purses, and continued to do so until I was caught by the police.  I went to jail and had to do some time.  While I was there I was able to get clean from the drugs and alcohol.  I used my time to really evaluate my life and where I was headed.

Once I got out I started working simple jobs and living in a home with other people who were trying to get their lives right again.  We supported each other and they quickly became brothers to me.

I met a woman.  Her name was Julie. She was willing to accept my past and love the man I was.  We got married two years after we met.

Julie and I are still together.  I love her so much.  She will never replace Ann and Sarah, but she knows I love her in a different way.  I loved Ann as a young man, and now I love Julie with an older type of love.  I make sure to tell her I love her every day, and my previous pain has made me appreciate her so much more than I thought I would be able to.

Every moment that I get with Julie is a gift.  She comes to all my shows and holds me when I’m having bad days.  We agreed that we would never have a child, instead we have a dog.  His name is Mr. Scruffles.

So, that’s it, that’s my past. It was a sad time, but I look forward to the future with excitement.

I’m Growing a Beard

I’m Growing a Beard

beard oilDo you know what I think I’m missing?  I’m missing a beard.  I think the Australian country music scene is missing critical facial hair.  Sure Keith Urban has a bit of scruff, but it’s nothing like what I’m planning.

I want a huge wooly beard. Something that screams, “I am a man who refuses to buy razors!” I think that it will set me apart from the rest of the country music community.

One odd thing about my facial hair is that it grows in red.  It is so crazy.  My hair color is naturally blonde so when my facial hair grows in everyone thinks that I’ve died my hair.

Julie is not too excited about this whole beard thing. She’s afraid that it’s going to make me look unprofessional.  She knows that I’m not the neatest eater so I think she’s worried about me getting my lunch in it.

I admit that the thought of my beard harbouring food particles does make me a bit queasy, but I found a guide on Web MD on how to take care of your beard so I’m sure I can keep it up. I let Julie read the guide and she said that as long as I keep it well groomed, she probably won’t mind it…too much.

Web MD says that you should style the beard at first.  You should wait until you have about one to one and a half inches of growth before you start to shape it. The article also suggests that I should grow the beard for two to three months and if it isn’t growing in correctly that I should just give up because not everyone has the genetics for glorious facial hair.

The article says that I need to wash and shampoo my beard.  I should leave in a conditioning product like beard oil from Beardbrand. Beard oil helps condition beards and improve its health and appearance.  Beardbrand has five different scents of beard oil.  I think I’m going to try Four Vices scent first.  It says it gives your beard a manly scent.

After my beard has grown out and I’ve been able to shape it, Web MD says that I should trim it ever two months to avoid split ends.  My birthday is coming up and I’m going to ask Julie for special beard scissors and comb.

Oddly, the article says that studies have found that men who have beards that get more sleep have quicker beard growth.  I guess that’s as good of an excuse as any to sleep in more.